Paired

"Paired" 12x16" encaustic on panel (available in my shop now)

"Paired" 12x16" encaustic on panel(available in my shop now)

There are many aspects about my work that are personal.  At times I am not even fully aware of it until after a painting is complete.  "Paired" began as a personal piece. 

My father passed away in 2004.  He was a huge champion of my work and was always one of my best friends.  Both of my parents would always make sure I had what I needed.  In the most important ways; through moral support and encouragement.  There are so many time just having their man power made it possible to complete a project.  I could go on and one here about how lucky I was to have him as a Dad.  Maybe another time. 

I felt driven to make work about how I was feeling.  I've painted several paintings over and over.  They never quite work.  Two paintings have.  Each of them speak to only a piece of what I have been trying to say.  I'll share the other soon.

My parents had been together 35 years.  They were high school sweethearts and amazing role models as to what a partnership should be.  It seemed so awkward and wrong when two became one.  I kept thinking about pairs.  Partnerships.  Balance. 

Many sketches about this finally turned into an encaustic piece.  Yet, it never felt quite right.  It seemed too dark.  Although I had many dark times surrounding his passing, when I think of my Dad that isn't how I feel.  I sense a lightness and a possibility surrounding the concept of partnership.  So I revisited this painting and it feels so much better this time. 

Perhaps one day I will be able to complete a painting with all the feelings I have about my Dad.  Maybe not.  Until then I am confident that each of my paintings have a piece of his imagination, optimism and excitement because he is big part of who I am.