There are many aspects about my work that are personal. At times I am not even fully aware of it until after a painting is complete. "Paired" began as a personal piece.
My father passed away in 2004. He was a huge champion of my work and was always one of my best friends. Both of my parents would always make sure I had what I needed. In the most important ways; through moral support and encouragement. There are so many time just having their man power made it possible to complete a project. I could go on and one here about how lucky I was to have him as a Dad. Maybe another time.
I felt driven to make work about how I was feeling. I've painted several paintings over and over. They never quite work. Two paintings have. Each of them speak to only a piece of what I have been trying to say. I'll share the other soon.
My parents had been together 35 years. They were high school sweethearts and amazing role models as to what a partnership should be. It seemed so awkward and wrong when two became one. I kept thinking about pairs. Partnerships. Balance.
Many sketches about this finally turned into an encaustic piece. Yet, it never felt quite right. It seemed too dark. Although I had many dark times surrounding his passing, when I think of my Dad that isn't how I feel. I sense a lightness and a possibility surrounding the concept of partnership. So I revisited this painting and it feels so much better this time.
Perhaps one day I will be able to complete a painting with all the feelings I have about my Dad. Maybe not. Until then I am confident that each of my paintings have a piece of his imagination, optimism and excitement because he is big part of who I am.